Sunday, January 29, 2006
i think i'm going to be sick soon.or it i think i am sick already.i've block nose,sore throat and my headache and my tummy hurts la..i hate it when i'm sick during cny and then i wont be able to eat the bbq pork!!!and my mummy bought alot okay..i dont care la.i'll just eat..worse come to worse,i'll just take tons of medicine.hahas.i'm so sleepy now la.my eyes are going to close soon!!but i dont want to..but i want to sleep.my eye bags are super obvious now can..house visiting tml.mum's side.then my dad's side will come over to my place..
i get pissed really easy now!!just now during dinner,i got real pissed with everyone that talk to me.and this morning,i woke up crying!!hahas.weird la..
yesterday was good!went to great world and watch i not stupid too with jiarui,cherie and crystal.the show rawks can.the show made me cry more then 5 times but it's funny though.i want to watch again la..
okay i have no more mood to type already.my head really hurts la.oh and happy new year!
3:53 PM
Tuesday, January 24, 2006
sheryl crow-the first cut is the deepest
I would have given you all of my heart
but there's someone who's torn it apart
and she's taking almost all that I've got
but if you want, I'll try to love again
baby I'll try to love again but I know
The first cut is the deepest, baby I know
The first cut is the deepest
'cause when it comes to being lucky she's cursed
when it comes to lovin' me she's worst
but when it comes to being loved she's first
that's how I know
The first cut is the deepest, baby I know
The first cut is the deepest
I still want you by my side
just to help me dry the tears that I've cried
cause I'm sure gonna give you a try
and if you want, I'll try to love again
but baby, I'll try to love again, but I know
The first cut is the deepest, baby I know
The first cut is the deepest
'Cause when it comes to being lucky she's cursed
when it comes to lovin' me she's worst
but when it comes to being loved she's first
that's how I know
The first cut is the deepest, baby I know
The first cut is the deepest
12:51 PM
Saturday, January 14, 2006
fridays are horrible!!!i hate it when there's chem!
ss.i wanted to sleep but mrs tan kept looking at me.horrid.chinese next then double chem..I DONT LIKE CHEM LESSONS..it's boring and i feel so lonely today cause sara didnt come today and i sat there like an idiot okay.i was 'paying attention' cause miss phee kept looking at my direction.and if i dream,she'll scold..but her lessons are really boring though she trys to make it interesting.hahas.but at least dearest jiarui is right infront of me.hahas.
geog then amath.we had to this silly thing for amath.we have got to compete against each other and see who finishes a equation the fastest and the winner must say 'show down'.and you'll win points.and there;s this vietnam girl.she's pro i tell you.like 2 min to solve one equation and i feel so jealous!cause if she slow down a little,i'll get the points!rarr!!!!
2:29 PM
Monday, January 02, 2006
i feel weird.i feel all alone.like i'm the only one left in the world.i hate it.it makes me think so much and cry so much.i thought i had let go?i thought i put it all behind me and moved on?i thought i really smiled.i thought time is all i need?but i'm wrong.all that didnt really happen.i dont think i really let go.and i did not really moved on and i doubt my smile was real.why?do i not want to let go?or i cant?i dont know.i'm just not myself anymore.i'm tired.i really am.i really want to end all these things and start anew.i want to be a new person.but i know i cant.i'll still be stuck here.in this place where no one will ever want to step into-hell.
it's been 18 months yet nothing happen.i keep hoping and praying that some day,you'll be back.but i'm scared to have you back.what if you slip away again.esp when i needed you?will you stay if i ask you to?will you let me love you again?
i'm sorry i could not control myself.i'm just letting things out here.there's no other way.besides..but i wont.i'm a good girl.
3:22 PM
Sunday, January 01, 2006
todays the last day of 2005.how fast.like 12 months gone..like gone for good!well it has been a hard year for me i must say.so many things happen!oh well.i wont say anything here cause i'm not suppose to.but those who know it,good for you.i dont feel like blogging but i have to.it's the last day of the year!oh well.i was kinda moody today so i went shopping!met rachel downstairs and off we went..first we went to taka jewellery to get her mum present..saw many many rings which were super pretty!!!i could not stop looking so i decided to get one.bought this ring and it's so sweet!hahas.then we went taka and i bought stationary for fun cause the stuff there are just so cute!hahas so we walked and talk then i saw watches so i bought one.it's the pink baby-G one and rachel got the white one!walked around for awhile then cab back..countdown again tonight!
11:15 AM